I have always thought of myself as a strong person, one who would have a happy and successful life- but nothing could have prepared me for the indescribable pain and devastating impact that betrayal trauma would have in all areas of my life.  I had never before experienced something so indescribable in any words and yet so pervasively saturating to every crevice of my existence.  After years of unproductive efforts to help my spouse and find help- I felt broken.  I continued to experience deceits and disclosures, emotional abuse, and crushing hopelessness- I felt utterly destroyed, hopeless, and helpless to stop the pain.  Everything I loved felt lost and dead, including my sense of self and heart.   

My path back to self-discovery, wholeness, and healing took courage I had not yet summoned to that point and that I could have never summoned alone.  The layers of physical, emotional, psychological, and sexual betrayal pain felt like a thousand-foot-high wall- disconnecting me from my heart and my creative, life-bringing center- which was the source of my great pain.  My heart had been shattered so many times I wondered if it was even possible to find all the scattered pieces, let alone put them back together.  And I was tired, so very, very tired.   Into my life came gentle coaches who had walked this path and knew how to guide me through it.  I began to see glimpses of the person I thought was lost- but in a whole new form.   I slowly, painfully re-learned to open myself to my own and others’ love and believe I was worth enough to value my healing and un-learn false beliefs about myself that were deeply wounding. Stepping into the most vulnerable spaces in my heart time after time proved to be the most deeply terrifying and rewarding thing I have ever risked.  But it brought with it rewards of flecks of gold and pieces of me renewed and transformed- and I wanted to find them all. 

I learned (and unlearned) who I was at my core being.  I found within myself an invincible summer, and a grounded way of being that held me fast to a foundation of self-love, compassion, and truth.  I was liberated, painstakingly, layer by layer.  Experiencing my truth was the key to unlocking every new healing door.  All I endured became just experiences to be felt and experienced, but could no longer mean something about me.  I finally deeply felt what it meant to feel able to vulnerably connect with my heart, and, by doing so, trust myself again. I practiced a new way of seeing my partner- without judgment or expectation and with the same compassion I now had for myself. I also got to show up in my power, holding a sacred space for my truth with love.  I felt hope for the first time in a very long time, and was surprised when that hope breathed new life into myself and my relationships.

As a board-certified coach trainee with hundreds of hours of experience coaching betrayal trauma clients, my mission as a coach is to bring you that hope.   I would love to guide you to find your inner power that comes from a truthful way of Being- living in alignment with values that create authentic purpose and joy.  With this power, you can create a life and future you will love- no matter what- and every choice you then make will be aligned with your highest purpose and healing.  I would be honored to walk with you on that path and share deep wisdom and connection and all the love and support I have to give.